I had my last fall event a few weeks ago, but rather than collapsing I am changing gears, and turning to all the garden chores yet to be done. The digging and the tedious scrubbing and storing of tubers and corms, dahlia, the Peacock Orchids, the Peruvian daffodils, the Nerine and Callas…
The cutting back of perennials, the rounding up and storing of stakes and other random tools and props scattered randomly about. The massing layers of dried and crackling chestnut, oak, and maple leaves over the confused spring bulbs, which have been tricked into thinking they should come now.
There is the hurried last minute planting of spring flowering trees, and shrubs, and the fruits I had no time to plant earlier, the fig, plum and elderberry to be going into my food garden.
In many ways, this is one of the busiest times of year for me, but also the time my work turns quiet, the deadlines more forgiving, the pressure less intense, with days spent totally alone, devoid of the noise - the questions and comments - the directions - the confessions
and laughter - of production.
So I approach all these tasks with wonderful amounts of space in my head to think, to revisit, to imagine/reimagine, to plan for my little plot of land, knowing full well that likely one tenth of what I plan for next season will actually be executed because time, like those winged milkweed seeds that burst from their pods and drift up onto the wind, somehow is always out of reach. It is the time of year I settle into a gentle surrendering. Where I am reminded that nature is in charge.
Idon’t let this defeat me, but I know that I am being stilled - and flop into my loss of control like a child into a bed of leaves. This is a time to think and to dream. To take advantage of the quiet, my gardens now fully snuffed by multiple frosts.
On days that I've gotten enough done, I reward myself with a moment to make something. This is the time of year I am able to pull arrangements decaying in thei transport boxes, from 2-3 weeks of event load outs, and remove what's still living from them, and rework, remake, always trying to make something better. There is space in my head now for this. There is quiet.
I think about how this is like the end of election season. How there is stillness again, for now. I think how we must follow the lead of my hands. We must step back and look, pull apart, remove the fading, stems and branches, determine which are worth a resuscitating in a warm water bath, which go straight to compost, and then rework what's solid, rearrange them, and make something better than what I made originally.